i can no longer figure out another reason to love you
because when i think again, you have never even exist in my heart.
dont you think you are pushing this a bit too far.
and dont you realise you are suffocating me and that not a single bit of you is actually stuck deep within my heart.
indeed i care fr you and that all those promises i made, i meant it.
every single one.
but have you clung on me enough?
because im getting sick and tireddd already.
i know yr intention is fr us to stick close together as friends, but not like this.
dont you think by now, you should take a step back from my life.
because i, like you an other human beings in this world need freedom.
so,i need freedom.
and not having you so damn involve in my already hectic life.
so mister, stop telling me stuff i dont want to know, and geting irritated with me because i told you stuff you didnt want to know. because you started it first.
go figure.

torture me more, and you shall go to hell.

pictures of me wont come out on every post because.
simply, both of my computers broke down.
seriously.
can yoo imagine how pissed as ass shit fck i was?
but me,being a smart girl, (please, theres a difference between smart and clever oke?)
used mums laptop to get things almost back to normal.
and finally, th wireless thingy that have been luring around th air of my house is put to very good use. ;D

last saturday, i cleaaaaan my room,spick and span. ;D
with th help of dad,mum and myself.
sister only help with th vacuuming.
and biy, i room sure have loads and loads and loads of rubbish.
prove you, you know the rag and bone men also known as karang guni is being quite stingy right?
that when you sold a room full of newspapers you get like 5 bucks? 10 bucks?
so jyeaaa, my rubbish like 80% is sold to th karang guni man fr 10 bucks and sumpah swear, its th stingy one. ;D
rearranged th furnitures in my room, and i totally looooooooooove how my room look like now. ;D
so, i was really satisfied.
it means that, our hard work paid off.
thus, as far as possible, i want to keep my room clean.
and yes, i made siser try her best to be neat.
otherwise, i will just clean her rubbish(:
because im a very good sister.
so since my PC is now dead and gone, i replaced them with mums lappy at th computer table, and boy, it looks soooo damn neat like o m g.
because th flat monitor gone, keyboard gone,mouse gone. ;D
hahaha, and since mum lappy can bring any where in any parts of th house, most of th time that table is empty, thus making it my study table.
*griiiiiiiiins widely

prelims are so over.
imma relax fr a while before starting serious mugging.
and i really men serious.
MUST GET SHATEC! ;D
i know i should be choosing polytechnics,
but i swore to mum, i will live my dream.
so,Temasek will be my choice.
yeap, no more tourism and resort management.
threw that dream sooooo faaaaar awaaaaaaaaay alrd.
because i know, that is too demanding for me.
might as well go fr something i really enjoys doing. ;D
things should go smoothly if i work hard from now.
CHEF CHEF CHEF CHEP orrrrr i BAKE BAKE BAKE BAKE until th day i die. ;D
best hidup gituuuu.

i miss my dearest girlfriend,
sofiaa aini, we see each other in school
but seldom talk random shit to each other.
geee,thnks prelims.
so yea,i miss her like fck.
pleasepleaseplease,come back to me.
i miss my sofia aini. D:
i baddly want to talk to her like how we did every single moment.
i miss my 'Handsome'.
inside joke,go figure. (:

and my dearest girlfriend got me addicted to Fated To Love You.
yessssssssssss.
i still got th addiction of taiwan drama.
because its very ncenicenice.
oke,talking about it, i can never stop. ;D
i just started Fated to Love You, so cnt really say much.
and im so done with those 'act-cute' mintak kena tampar Taiwan Dramas.
namely, Why Why Love and Devil Beside You.
still,they are nice dramas, apart from the mintak kena tampar perangais. (:
so maybe, after Fated To Love You, i shall watch it started with a kiss, they kiss again and then boys over flowers.
nahhh, Boys over flowers comes first.
moreover, i saw one of their episodes,it v th nice.
*drooooooooooooooooooool.
oke thats korean drama.
stillm foreign kan?
tak haraaaam pun. ;D

started my baking spreeeeee today.
bake a successful first batch Chocolate Almond cookies.

second batch will be
th Merigue also known to many as Macaroon.
haha, i think i made this best, aside from my brownies. (:

third batch will be,
Cherry Dot Cookies.
this is a new recipe, gonna modify it a little i guess.
hahaha, you know i dont really trust following recipes step by step. ;D
they always turns fine to me.
ofund it at th back of cornflakes box.
yessss,i love collecting recipes and try them.

haha, i got a whole library full of cookbooks,but i never ge th chnce to really try them out.
and my aunt from australia,again, is getting me a few more coookbooks from there. im a happy and contented girl now.

so i shall be going.

love yoooo people. ;D


"leave now but dont come back with regrets in yr eyes.
because i cant take another sympathy.
sick of being too nice,but cant shake it off"

God is fair aint he?
making life unfair
so we would work super hard
to achieve whatever we want.
true?
someone prove me wrong.

OPS!
hanna nak mintak paisehh.

sorry fr the lack of updates.
whats there to update about?
haha.
i've been all around
superrr preoccupied even during th holidays.
and yes, the break.
forget about it,besides a getaway,
i really really really need a day at the beach.
seriously.
and i dont care it th beach is dirty, not peaceful,
screams and cried of children so loud, they can burst my ear drums.
balls flying up in th sky and even if they land on my head and i were to die or faint.
will funny tactics of people doing silly notorious things in th water
seeing kayaks everywhere and even if the bow of th kayak hit my head so hard that
my bones fall to pieces.
I-DONT-CARE.
because all i need right now is a little funnn.
like just shove awayyy all these stress fr just one day
and just have funnn.
its not that im getting boring and laid back these few days of holidays.
but i keep thinking and hyperventilating when i think of MAJORS. D:
so how?

th POA day camp i attended yesterday was actually,
cant believe im saying this but.
its FUN. :D
i really had fun and at th same time i gain knowledge.
so now, Accruals and Prepayments, get lost!
i know how to deal with you now.
now,go die.
geeez, i love poa.
dont know why,
though i dont score top top top,
but i enjoy doing T-accounts calculating and all.
makes my self look so neat.
oke, lepas ni,confirm kena spot nya. ;D

and today,sadly, i cnt make it.
because i have to look and hunt fr kueh raya recipes that i throw all ard my house and room
right after th Baking Spree of last year's rayaaa.
and at th same time cook fr bukaaa later.


been watching Taiwan Dramas alot these days.
da jadi macam addiction. ;D
haha, they are hilarious but at th same time when it comes to th climax or something
you could just cryyy.
and i love it more because it doesnt have SO MANYYYY episodes like Animes or some other nice Indonesian Dramas.
oke, i used to watch alot of chinese shows when i was in primary school.
and totally stop when i got to secondary.
started drooling over korean dramas fr a while, then stop again all th way until now.
thats been like 3 years plus?
haha. ;D
they are nice.
and though i know.
taiwan/chinese/korean dramas is not equal to syarifah azrinatul nurulhanna.
but still.
i enjoys drooooooling of these dramas. (:
and geeez.
sofiaaa just told me another.
Fated to Love you. ;D
didnt really watch properly.
so,jyeaaaa.
im gonna watch,sooon. ;D

andddddddd.

so,id be gone then.
i dont know when im gonna update.
so catch me when you can. ;D
loves.